It’s been one of those weeks where it’s felt like nothing much has happened and yet tons and tons has happened and there’s a sense of inevitable irresistable and welcome change.

Earlier in the week I was talking to a friend about her impending visit to a psychic (and I’m still bursting to hear what happened, but she knows that so I’ll shut up). Nevertheless, it reminded me of another friend who does tarot readings and it just so happened I was round her house on Tuesday or was it Monday? Where did the time go? I digress.

So my other friend did a tarot reading for me and it was all about how I’m resisting change and holding on to stuff when there are great opportunities around me if I’d just look around. There was also a lot of stuff about laughing and enjoying being with friends and generally having a good time. And the opportunities and changes that are there and coming are inevitable, whether I push it or not.

Of course, I’ll probably push it because that’s just me, but it does take away the feeling of pressure to DO something when it’s said that it’s inevitable like that and I think that lack of pressure is a good thing. It gives some freedom to think and be creative.

Then tonight another old friend, Andy, phoned up and said could he drop in on his way home and I said sure, that would be great because I haven’t seen him for ages. And he did. We actually didn’t do that much talking but the thing about talking to Andy is it’s always very meaningful.

Andy works as an editor and is several bands and he played me a CD — several in fact but this one stood out — of this song he’s been doing with a female vocalist with a beautiful voice. Fay.

Andy plays a very sensual baseline and there are more people than just the two of them in the band. The song is all about this woman who has these delusions that she’s a secret agent and it’s just fantastic. I hope they make it big.

We talked a bit about options for the future and I tell him about the progress of my films because he’s done the music for one and they still aren’t finished because I’m relying on favors. Andy says not to worry, they are moving forwards and it will happen and it’s not like there’s anything I can do about it without funds.

We also talk a bit about graphic design and my trip to New York and just his reactions tell me I’m doing the right things and it he kind of just lets me inspire myself and gives positive reinforcement. I think a bit about working part-time and maybe doing a job-share in with another director so I can go back to college and study some more. It feels like an option and it feels good to have some options.

I’ve been listening to the lyrics of that song after (I burned it on to a minidisc) and it is so well written. And I was also thinking about the books I’m reading at the moment (another recommend from another friend), Travis McGee, and the wonderful storytelling and neat turns of phrase and general unputdownableness of the latest one I’ve bought. And you know what? I feel the urge to be more creative returning.

Spring is definitely in the air.